Expectancy.

Confession: Sometimes, when I can't sleep...I read Elisabeth Elliot for fun.

and she talks to me of loneliness lived.

of loneliness given

"Are you lonely?"

"Lonely? Why should I be?"

"You're single.

Most of the single people I know talk about being lonely."

"Oh, no.

You see, I have a sense of expectancy everyday.

What does the Lord want to do with me today?

I have no agenda of my own."

The heart which as no agenda but God's is the heart at leisure from itself. Its emptiness is filled with the Love of God. Its solitude can be turned into prayer." -E. Elliot

In My Dreams.

What is it inside of us that is captivated by the idea of being a princess?

Or at least by the idea of being a princess to someone.

"And above all, watch with glimmering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places.

Those who don't believe in magic will never find it."

Aging.

Lately...

I've started to become less afraid of aging.

I mean, I am almost a senior in college

Remember in high school, when we thought seniors in college were ancient?

Bah!

But actually, I kind of look forward to having more

life experience

and wisdom

and sharing it.

So, this may be the most adorable thing I've seen in a while.

I wonder if older people hate being called adorable...but still, I just love this.

Quick, go here and see more!

Foolish

I've been making a mistake.

I've been asking God for something

instead of asking God for himself.

God always ignores your present level of completeness in favor of your ultimate future completeness. He is not concerned about making you blessed and happy right now, but He's continually working out His ultimate perfection for you..."

That I could say:

If all I have is You, all of you is all I need

and mean it.

Even in a Deluge

The earth be immersed in a deluge of rains,

Yet, the soul, stayed on God, may sing bravely its psalm,

For the heart of the storm is the center of calm.

Be glad and serene when the tempest clouds form;

God smiles on His child in the eye of the storm.

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This weekend I spent some time in the hospital

with my grandpa who is dying of leukemia.

I have never seen someone so calm,

so strong in the Lord,

so confident that God

gives and takes away.

I arrived outside his door to find him highlighting in his Bible--studying Joseph

"I'm going to preach until the day I die", he said to me.

And yet, there is this part of my heart

that lives in denial,

that is so determined not to lose him,

that is still afraid of the dark.

Bright Spot: Home

First of all,

Homeward Bound is the worst movie.

Ever.

Second,

It's raining and grey

and I got soaked walking across the quad.

But it's okay!

I'm going HOME.

Right now.

Oh, and I'm in love.

Haha. Gotcha.

But I am in love with this song.

Thank you, Ben Rector...

Listen.

"The hardest part was finding you

But once I did...

I knew."

Truth.

A Perfect Day

Would Look Like...

Waking up at 7

Putting on tennis shoes.

Taking a walk with the birds.

Blue Skies.

People watching at a coffee shop.

Caramel Latte.

Granola and Yogurt.

Sharing secrets with a friend.

Showering in the middle of the day.

Coldplay.

Wearing something floral.

Playing piano for hours.

Children's Church.

Driving down windy country roads.

Intramural Softball.

Oh wait, that looks like today.