Hurt for the Healing.

Sometimes I get really

bogged down & captured

under the weight of everything that has

gone wrong.

Our world, our relationships, our cities...they aren't supposed to be like this.

I sit in class and learn about the terrible conditions

children around the world are forced to deal with daily.

Child Soldiers

Parental abuse

Sex Trafficking.

"The younger, the better."

I sit in my room and research foster care and family crisis.

Big words that just mean broken lives.

I memorize statistics and know how many children live in a shelter.

Big numbers that equal a lot of need.

And it's so easy to be emotional--sad or angry.

But it's not enough.

It's when I get a text from my boyfriend that says,

"God is doing big things here.

We just helped feed 90 kids when a snow day happens"

that I remember all the ministries and missions

who are hoping to heal hurt.

And it just so happens that someone I care about is there,

Working paid and unpaid hours in order to do something.

Thank you.

Knowing makes it easier that you're not here.

I still know that this is not how its supposed to be,

but I also need to remember that there's hope now,

and there's hope in the future.

When there will be no more tears.

This girl.

This quote is on my desk:

This person that you are now;

Remember her,

And don't lose sight:

Don't campare your life progress to others

I so easily forget my values.

The reasons and purposes

to my doing.

And sometimes I need a reminder.

My values:

Healing. Safety. Loving others well. Listening. Reconciliation.

Shedding His light on people's darkness.

Sometimes I forget.

Sometimes I blend in.

Sometimes I lose.

I am the world's Light. No one who follows me stumbles around in the darkness. I provide plenty of light to live in."--Jesus (John 8)