Finding Him

It used to be so easy. 

He was in my space everyday.

I would bump into Him in every friendly conversation,

every classroom experience,

every work meeting.

My job, my life, my schoolwork

it all revolved around Him.

Nowadays, 

it's just harder.

I went from directing women's Bible studies

to handing hot drinks out of a drive-thru window.

I went from eating, sleeping, and breathing with Godly roommates

in a small yellow apartment

to having to call, plan, and meet best friends in coffee shops

while living in my childhood bedroom, alone.

I went from having a mentor,

& being a mentor

to just attending church, 

trying to connect in the busy-ness that is city life.

I went from knowing every face and personal story in my classroom

to a brand new group of classmates,

whose names I still don't know.

It's hard, 

change.

And I have been trying to find Him here,

at Starbucks,

with my family,

with high school best friends.

I know He's here.

His presence is all around me.

Constantly loving & saving.

Never leaving.

If only I could learn to rest in knowing I'm in His will,

and remember that it is in the valleys that our character is molded the most.